its been 26 days since we were last together; since i last hugged and kissed you; since i last was able to be super close to you. have you realise how long its been? what if back then i didnt skipped my test for you? would it mean the time we apart will be 1+ mth? i have no idea. these 26 days... no sms nor any other way of contact from you. saw you at fl nia. sure, i did caught you looking at me. but thats about it. what am i supposed to think of all these? you got your friends so wun feel lonely so dun need me? have you really treated me like a sex toy? when you dont need me liao just throw me aside and neglect me? it really seems so to me. haix. why this way?
past two days was at genting highlands. do you know how frequent i thought of you? maybe its because i only had travelled with you before thus i think of you. but i seriously dun think that was the case. i rmbred when i was cold, you hold me close to me. always walking side by side. the conversations we had while looking at certain things. late at night you sleeping besides me. first person wake up to see was you. morning kisses and everything. bathing the fun we had. so much memories with you. i really miss you a lot. do you feel the same way? or had you really stop loving me? so many things you said and the lies. i know i should trust your words if i truly love you but your actions? it proved otherwise. 2007 coming as of tomorrow. will we still meet? or has the end come? i have no idea. im scared of the future.
| a simple me. 2:55 PM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
hmm lets see ah. the month of november i meet you 3 times i think. 10, 18 and 27. didnt remember to blog last two times. cant really remember what happened. but sure is happy de larsh.
well well well. ever since last friday i have been appearing offline most of the times. been thinking of you a lot. then very xinku so dun wan online nor. but i decided not to let you worry so appear online once and put my personal msg as wun online for the time being cos my d drive sot le. was very tired last night but cant fall asleep. as i toss and turn in bed, a sms from you came. ask me if i today got sch then i told you can skip all lessons except 2-4pm de. so you kinda hinted you coming then go back to sleep.
i msged my friends and told them i not going down to sch today except for frankie's lab. then i got the news that we having a lab test! damn disappointed. sms told you that. you said didnt wan to come at 9+am cos you have to leave at 12pm. felt so weird. normally you meet me also around 2+hours de mah. then you said you wan hug me to sleep. i kena shocked. dunno true anot. you said take it as you begged me and ask me skipped my test today. then asked you more. then you say your lj pain -.- felt so confused xia. never have you begged me before. after deciding all the odds, i agreed to skip my lab test.
you reached my place at 7:15am. i wanna go take hp but you snatch my hand and ask me come. surprised. i asked you wait i take hp. once seated in front of you, you suddenly just hug me around the waist tight for about 5min. at that point of time, i can particularly feel how much you need me as i need you. i know i made the right choice to skip the test. we kissed a lot at the beginning heex. you really did hug me to sleep like twice or thrice? =D~ you wanna put lj in but my there not wet enuff. can see you very disappointed =( but you still just hug me close. thx laogong.
your hp rang 3 times but you only answered it one time. does this means i more important than the call and you dont want others interrupt us? if so, it seems just like last time. you left around 11:50am. as usual i always dragged the time. still dont understand why everytime after you got your needs jiu go str8 de. oh well, nvm bah. still glad that i can see you. but friday, which is your birthday, you said wun meet me >.< haiz. thought this year my birthday you got acc me then i wanna acc you too. but cant. cos now is sch holidays. your mum never go work. zzz. goodness know when can we meet again?
| a simple me. 5:48 PM
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