ok. the last time i met you is on 22 oct. i got hugs and kisses from you. i leave you with a take care and goodbye. thats all. xintat now officially closed.
| a simple me. 8:19 PM
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
i hate your godma. i hate everything that she told me on fone today. she said until i am the one who harassed you. which i didnt lorsh. i admit i keep contacting you the first month after we break off. but this month september i never lorsh. you never sms me i also let it be. i angry with you you also never do anything. then your godma also say she against the idea of you having girlfriend at this age. come on. we already NINETEEN years old liao can. wads wrong with dating? in a couple of years all of us will be of marriagable age le nor. must date for a few years then can marry le what. don't date now wait til after ns ah. then like your parents marry at 40 meh? crap. i dun wan lorsh. aiya dunno what they thinking la. as if all that isnt enuff. your godma even said if they know we still in touch, they wun ever forgive you and me. BULLSHIT lorsh. whats wrong with staying as friends? dammit. very angry at what she said lorsh. i always thought she is the most understanding in the family. apparently, i doubt so. hais. dunno la. now the choice is mine once more. stay or leave. no idea. such a difficult choice. i need time to cool down. sorry if i attitude or not talk to you a couple of weeks. no matter what is the outcome, i will still be loving you Wei Tat. this is my promise to you. 512 1314 584!
| a simple me. 11:16 PM
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Monday, October 09, 2006
you came back from indo on 4 oct. didnt bother to sms me til 6 oct and asked if i was working. i never reply you. you didnt bother sms again. then saw you at fl outside playing fireworks so happily. wrote you an email scolded you. the next day you came over to my house unvited. i kept saying you. yet all you gave was excuses or avoided my topic. all just because you want the SEX. thus you were so kind to give me all i want without my asking. as usual, once you got the thing, you left my house within minutes using your parents as excuse.
even tho i gave you wad you want that day, im still angry at you. as if it isnt enuff, i got additional information that you sent someone to spy me and hope that i will fall for that person. my whole world crumples upon hearing that. what is the meaning of all this? why have you become such a devious person? so heartless. make used of me and others. i really wanna trust my instinct that you still love me. but the evidence.. it really doesnt add up.
your brother messed with your gf behind your back. yet you can forgive him and be BEST FREN with him. i thought your anger at him lasted so long was because you really love me. but now? im no longer sure. it seems you are just mad at being made a cuckold. end of topic.
i feel so lost. i really dunno what to say liao. to stay or leave. apparently, im the one in control of this right now. i know if this drags on, it wun do any of us any good at all. plus your mum knows about corliss thing WHICH YOU DIDNT TELL ME. no wonder you said our patch rate is 0%. got people say that you may get depression from this matter. the only way for you not to end up with that is i disappear. how? so confused now. i so in need of a break. the truth hurts. hate or love.. im hanging by a thread. HAIS!
| a simple me. 6:23 PM
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Monday, October 02, 2006
mad at you. disappointed with you. you went indonesia for TWO days liao. you didnt sms me a single time. you didnt even tell me you went indonesia. true. i saw it on msn. i hear it from people. but so wad??? i want YOU to tell me yourself. i dun wan it to be hearsay. do you understand that? apparently not. have been doing some thinking again recently. these few days you not around i really do miss you. but the way you treating me.. it really hurts. true. i willingly deliver myself to you. but you KNOW that i still love you. yet you still this way. i cant help but think you are making use of me. each time sms me is cos you wan dirty chat. even ask me buy ppc for you. so crap nor. yet when i meet up with you, you still give me the feeling that you love me. why is it so? i really have no idea. then its so freaking obvious you still see porn nor. got people tell me lorsh. come on man Tat. we are NOT steads liao. you want see porn go ahead. wad for lie YOU NEVER? damn idioitic lo. as if i can control you now. as if i got the right to say you. honesty is all i ask from you. such small things you also can lie. then wad about if you still love me? that time your answer was no. then after ch thing change to yes. your words and your actions are very contradicting. i do not know what to believe. my heart and the reality doesnt match up. im so lost. if only you aint this way... all i know is im gonna ignore you for a week after you come back. i dun care. im super mad now. if you were to go away and stop contacting me just cos i ignore you for a week, then i guess i was wrong about you. praying hard it wun be that way. sighs.
| a simple me. 2:31 PM
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