lalala. sunshine after the rain! my menses came on 15 sep. still having it now. so now you and i dun have to worry about it liao le. you told me the solution you had thought up of; death. wha lau xia. scared me to death nor >.< so selfish your thoughts. scold you like hell. i made u agree never to think of that again. you said ok. then we started talking liao also. almost everyday we got chat in msn or sms. sometimes long sometimes a while nia. you promised me never to say don't meet up again and also told me i wun ever lose you as a fren. also said can meet up ocassionally. so today we met up ^^ you came my house when my dad was slping. whahaha. hao kai xin wor. you even let me call you laogong and said you still got feelings for me. how long will this happiness last? i also have no idea. wish we can stay this way and there won't be any changes. good changes i dun mind. bad de hua... i dunno how to take it. so i hope all will be fine this time. love you lots dearie!
| a simple me. 9:55 PM
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Monday, September 11, 2006
hais. why you like that? why keep like to say the five words "i dun love you anymore". and keep insist that you not lying. and even doubt me when i said my menses not here yet. am i such a liar in ur eyes? it seems all i gave you now is stress and sadness. the threatening doesnt work. you don't take hard. neither do you take soft. i really dunno what to do now. guess i got no choice. i already said after the truth is out (if im pregnant), i will leave you and not bother with you again. you just kept quiet. no protest. no nothing. dunno la. hope things will be fine. hope time can change ur mindset =\ *sobsob*
| a simple me. 8:27 PM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
yesterday went to celebrate with chunfa and you all for his birthday. i didnt speak a word to you but keep peeking at you. each time our eyes met, your face is not happy like that so i quickly turned away. was quite happy when you backed me up when i said the kbox attendent =D~ you didnt speak to me anymore after that. oh well. reached home. on com. waited 10min for you to online. but you didnt. so i went off to bed.
was about to sleep. then your sms came! i can see you were jealous over chunfa cos we were together almost all the time ytd. so i said you why dun wan admit got feelings for me. then u attituded me. in moment of anger, i told you my menses haven come. then you asked me what will i do. i said i wanna use that to make you be my hubby even if you dun love me anymore. then u said i never consider your feelings. so we quarrelled. hais. dui bu qi. i didnt wanna threaten you or cause you sleepless nights de. but you know me. very sensitive. you attitude me then i sure say things i dun mean without thinking de.
hope my menses will come soon. then we will both be able to sleep peacefully. and maybe still can even meet up. may the gods above look after us and give us his blessings. i really need it now =\ at first at work i dun think of u de. but now, even when working, you are also on my mind liaos. hais. miss you dearly!
| a simple me. 8:18 PM
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Monday, September 04, 2006
damn freaking irritated once more. i dunno what happened yesterday at bbq. no one wanna tell me the truth. all say nothing to do with me. craps nor. and you. for the umpteen time, you told me you wish to start afresh and dun wanna drag on with me anymore. what the hell is this? had your fun then leave me alone? break my heart so many times and make use of me so many times then just shake your butt and say i am just a hi-bye friend to you as of now. so you are playing with my heart la. JERK! i was wrong. dun i deserve a new chance? why must resort to this kind of ending? you really think leaving me will bring away all the memories ah? childish and naive thinking! i can tell you now then no matter what, you are just avoiding!! its not gonna make the matter go away! my heart... you broke it again and again. im really tired. its time to say goodbye perhaps. but i really dun belive you are so ruthless nor. hais. dunno la. tearful night once more. cold and lonely days ahead now is all i could see now. i wish you all the best.
| a simple me. 11:08 PM
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
lalala. these few days we got sms wor. and its just not a couple of sms. those from msn to hp til before you sleep. hehe. so happy! then yesterday you actually told me you not going down funland de. in the end you also did. and you got talk to me at fl wor. but of cos i approached you first de larsh. nvm larsh. at least i reached out for your can. you auto gave it to me without a word. and our eyes keep meeting. hehe nice nice!!
today you came to find me again. you rmbred that i said i wanna you be the first prsn i see when i open my eye in the morning. you waited til you reached my house outside then called me. so sweet! i was surprised cos i told you on bus jiu sms me mah haha. today dun have the weird feeling. im so glad. i can actually feel your love and happiness when you are with me =D~ hope it will always remain this way. then i dun have to be sad sad when we cant meet.
but as usual, there are small things which makes me sad. for example, you did not leave me with a kiss or hug today. said will sms me but never. then recently you got auto talked to jing somemore. it still bothers me. then you reminded me that we are just frenz not steads. and even said me and jing same. hais. hear liao cant helped be sad and thus kinda of keep saying you. sorry laogong. last thing is you dun wan me call you laogong. hais. bu zhi dao la.
im looking forward to 9 sep! chun fa's birthday we going kbox. actually i thot im the only girl de. end up ph's and des's stead coming along. so is li hong. hmmm will it feels weird then? after all the only girls go are steads of bros. yet i not anyone's gf. scare i will kena left out. oh well, see how nor. hope you will pei me talk that day and not leave me alone! rmbr this okok? love you to bits and pieces! muackies!
| a simple me. 11:05 PM
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