woah. i kkinda dunno how to write this entry xia. ytd til now like so many things happen. ytd u just saw those things i put inside ur thumbdrive. then u msn me ask me if wad i said is true, ie, let u treat me like prostitue. i said ya. n explain why i allow u to. then we finally had another talk about why break up and stuff. u said u used the five words as a last resort to get me let go. u said dora n ham nv change places but all the memories of u and me is kept inside the box in the drawer. u said u had cried when we break. u said u missed me every night and cant get to slp easily.
i asked if u still love me. u refuse to tell me. i asked if can patch. u said 100% no at first but seems to hesitate. i know u r scare if patch i will stick to u like glue again. i understand ur fears but u still dont seems to trust me. ask me why my hole so big. explained again and again. u dun seems to believe me. hais. whole world can dun believe me i dun care. but u the one i love leii. dunno la. anyway ytd we chat in msn very long wor. i so happy. tho half the time im like wanna cry. still, as long as u r talking to me again can liaos. we even sms whahaha. thx dear.
morning we got sms as i go polyclinic. then after that u came over find me. when u first came, i feel so awkward. i dunno if i should touch u. end up i just sit in front of com. luckily, u pull me over and hug me tight. i cried. i couldnt help myself. feels so good to be back in ur arms again. hug, kiss, we did them all. i thought u will stay on til evening. end up u didnt. left at abt 245pm. dun wanna let u go de. but i have no choice. if i pull u stay, ltr u kena scare of by me dun wan come find me. luckily u auto hug n kiss me b4 go and still got sms me a few sms.
frenz seems easier for u. then i shall not force u. i'll do as u wish n stay as ur fren. but in my heart, u will owaz be my dearest bf ok? since u talking to me liaos, i shall not keep bomb u with qns or wad liaos. i really super scare u go away again. i can onli take a step at a time now. hope things will turn out fine. u called me all the name u used to call me. except for the "laopo". i guess thats ok ba. love u loads. looking forward to meeting u again =) muackies. take care wherever u r!!
| a simple me. 6:48 PM
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