its just so weird. why is it everytime after a happy post something is bound to happen? craps. once again we quarrelled. maybe most of the fault lies with me. but u cant deny u r partly why it happens. all i asked is u tell me when u going out. why cant u do it? even used excuse say u dun even tell ur mother why shd u tell me? then y shd u tell bros? its so obvious half the time u meet bros is cos YOU asked them out. they never say wanna go out. u ask them if they wan to.
when u first not happy, u dun wan tell me. til now, u cant take it then scold me like hell. i vomit. i out of breath. wad u do? ignore me just walked on. is this how steads are supposed to be? im not comparing i swear. its just.. now we no longer meets everyday. u oso hardly talk to me outside of ur hse. u r so becoming who u r last year. n i dun wan that happen. my love for u is deeper than u imagine. its this love of mine that casuing me to act possessively n making me easily jealous. but its something which u will never understand. or maybe u dun wan to understand.
dun force me to cut myself or wadever. u know i will do it if i reli set my mind to it. it happened twice. n it will happen again if u force me to depression. if u dun wan to folo u when u go out with bros, u can say de. at most i go home. u seem happier with bros anyway. u got them, ma chaim dun need me de. everyday meet for about 5 hours oso can quarrel. wad abt married life then? even ur "wife" u oso treat this way. i dare not imagine wad will happen when we marry. that is, if u wanna marry me.
even now, u r still ignoring me. 5.5mths. first time u angry with me over nite. n u dun care. i sms u n everything, no reply. i dunno wad to do now. worried that things will happen to u. yet u dun give a damn abt me. tell me wad exactly u wan from me n i will say thanks a million to u. i reli hate crying n sleepless nites. think abt it ba.
| a simple me. 4:39 AM
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