19 July is the last day i meet u. 21 July is the day u said meet lesser. 23 July is the day u requested for break up. i was very calm this time around. only let go a few drops of my tears. its so obvious u dun wanna break. u keep asking me we stay as frenz ok? as if u were hoping i wun agree to it. u know i wun agree to it unless i had no choice. ending was i said u regard me as fren i regard u as bf. u came home online. ur nick "hope u will stop cheating urself. let it be history". i saw that. i cant help but break down. thats so hurting do u know? still, i braced myself up. i pm-ed u said, "ur msn nick very nice xia LOL". u said its cos i wun face the fact. i ji tao shoot u, thats my problem rite? wad has it gotta do with u? then u just changed ur nick back to Tat nor. reason i dun wan u put that is bcos i dun reli wanna boardcast the fact that we break up liao. u said u stopped loving me two weeks ago. u said u aint exactly happy that u decide to break with me. so contradicting. yet after we break u could talk to me more normally. its owaz this way. why? why is it so hard for u to talk to me as my bf? why its easier for u to see me as fren? why couldnt u forget the corliss thing? i dunno the answers to that. n i dunno if i should still believe in all those things u used to tell me. i lost. im reli lost. when we patched back in cny, i thot it will never end again. but it did. i hate ur mum. i dun wanna hear her voice again. as for u, i hope u will just give me a tight slap to make me wake up from this terrible dream. im suffering once more. im so in need of a hug from u. i miss u laogong. i miss u loads. counting the days til we will be together once more...
| a simple me. 9:22 PM
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