T.T as expected, i said break up, u no reply. oreadi 4 days lerr. do i means so little to u? then y am i still under ur msn list as laopo? u owaz let ppl go ur hse. all see ur msn. muz be thinking we patched ler. end up that isnt the truth. will u come back find me? oreadi 3+wks not together lerr. first time xia. guess euu are getting used to life without me. good or bad? last nite dreamt of euu again. so happy together in the dream. if onli thats reality. but it will never be i guess. me n u, can never have a happy ending =\ learning to brace myself up now. hope i can do it. wish me luck cuz i sure nid it.
| a simple me. 10:17 AM
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Saturday, November 05, 2005
i chose to say goodbye.. to put an end to hurting myself n euu.. to the love we shared.. written below is the break up email.. which u didnt even reply.. did u even bother to read it? i have no idea.. here goes wad i last said to euu:
laogong,
wan to mit u still muz booked u in advance de. this is called steads? more like steads in name. wanna mit u is cuz nov 7 we 512 days. but i guess u dun even care. u go think ur holiday how long ler? did u pei me once? nope. wad u doing everyday? chiong game or hang out with bros or watch dvd/vcd. wad u promise me? do u still rmbr? i dun think so. my existence? i'm ur laopo? do u reli think that way? then y do i not feel so? everytime ask u y dun wan reply me or pei me, have u once ans me? never. its not cuz u no time. is cuz u refused to pei me. its not cuz u slping. its cuz u dun wanna talk to me.
last yr ur birthday buffet. i am not invited. end up jj is the onli ger u invited. she msg u, almost 100% u will reply her. more like she ur stead xia. last yr xmas, nv pei me. pei ice instead, sum1 u supposedly dun like. this yr valentine day, with soon weng they all. they asked how come dun nid pei me? u juz sae dun bother abt her. this yr my birthday, did u even celebrate with me? never. birthday wishes? nope. present? NO oso. last time we watched movie? end of last yr. last time pei me eat dinner? april. wad else u wan me to dig out?
even if i done wrong last time, i oreadi changed. past 11mths, i cried more than i smile. reason being u pei me one day, after that disappear for like 1 or 2wk. this time leii? even worse. holiday 3+wks never even mit once. i dunno wad u wan from me. maybe sex onli ba. wad u need more is bros n games. go ahead then. lets break up. wait til 1 day u willing to pei me, willing to go out with me, willing to msg me n be like how we used to be then find me. arbo we stayed as frenz better.
thx for taking pic with me on our 16mth anniversary. thx for the happy times i have back in 120604 to 011004. thx for agreeing to buy ring with me. thx for the hamtaro as birthday present. thx for the surpised present winnie the pooh. thx for being my dear even though u r not happy when with me. thx for trying ur best to be with u even though u hate me. thanks for pretending to love me still even though u dun le. let me say one last time. i love u. i miss u. take care. goodbye.
xintat's story ends on 041105 (509days)
| a simple me. 3:10 AM
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