i dunno wad i shd say now. everything juz seem so weird. i am so unprepared for ur current actions. still cant reli believe that u r actually treating me this way lor. haiz. i love u since 454 days ago lei. n we are together for 1 year and 16days lor. yet juz because u going to ITE u choose to forget everything n start anew. is it fair to me? n we didnt even officially break up for goodness sake. u r making me backup in case u regret is it? i wish i knew wad u thinking. i wish u will tell me. give me an ans before my birthday can? i dun wanna cry on my 18th birthday..
sleepless nite has got me mad. u r torturing me just by doing nothing. isnt it time to put a stop to all these pain we feeling? or have u oreadi let me go? weitat, i beg u. just sae the truth. i knw n understand that we are past, isnt present n never will be future. so juz save us time n end it would u pls? dun leave me hanging without a word.. i reli hate this..
| a simple me. 4:55 PM
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
haiz. again i found out things i dun wish to know. u had changed ur hairstyle n is more cute n funny liao le. then ur class all chiobu de. from wad i know, u last time in sec sch like a lot of ppl. now that u in ite, u oso muz be the same i guess. easily fall for ppl plus all chiobu somemore. no wonder u ignoring me now n treating me non existence. guess u oreadi found ur next target n ur decision is moving on n forget me rite? hahaha.. good for u lor. wad can i sae? all i can do now is drown myself in tears n try to pretend u n me had never started. i feel like going ur hse take doraemon back. cuz u no longer nid it le mah. let u see it for wad. i dun wan u to see it then reminded of me. i dun wan u use me as a backup whne u fail to jio a ger. i dun wan. i guess its gonna be a lonely bdae for me. last yr my bdae u oso make me sad. this yr oso. y muz u be so selfish to me? is this wad u mean by love? so wanna hate u.. but deep down i knw i cant.. let me cry to my death bah. goodbye...
| a simple me. 2:17 PM
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
i am not happy. really really upset and disappointed. i know this may happen la. but i didnt realise so soon. i mean, true, u didnt say the word 'break'. but ur actions.. they are hurting me all the same. today is fourth day of ite. mgs u didnt reply. even went as far as blocking me from msn. blocking me so fun is it? all i wanna know is u online n ur nick. all i wan is know u r fine n happy. is it so hard? is it too much to expect from u? we are still stead in name no matter what. i still got the right to know how u r doing n everything de lor. i dunno la. now i am just waiting for weekend. hoping u will ask me out. if u didnt.. then i dunno le lor. n my bdae is juz a week away? will u even rmbr? i dun wan any gift from u. all i wan is ur love n the old Chin Wei Tat i know. i wan it all or nothing at all... i dun wan temporary happiness. i dun wan u to dump me when u find a new ger in ite. u understand mah? n i having slpless nite again.. haiz. every nite slp n wake up with wet pillow.. sobsob..
| a simple me. 8:56 PM
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
very sad lor. tmr u starting school liao. wanna pei u but u dun let. never even reply my msgs. then somemore block me in msn. wad u trying to do xia. dun wan me talk to u in msn then i wun lo. anyway not as if i bug u when u nv reply me rite? dun understand why u keep pulling ds stunts on me. n then do u knw how worry i am that u will go ite n find a new gf? u dunno lo. never even spare a thought for my feelings. where's the consoling i need? never once provide me with it. is it so hard for u to love me n be with me? if it is, why r u holding on? bcuz u love me i knw. but it seems so hard for u. n u seem so fine without me. haiz. getting more depressed liao. juz feel like cutting msyelf again u knw? sobsob..
| a simple me. 5:55 PM
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
yea happy! ytd i msg u said miss u a lot ni jiu reply that i can go find u.so i did. then so happy!! u treat me quite good wor! hug hug me n all that. when slping still pull my hand over hug u. heez. so blessed wor. then help me cover blanket oso kekeke. just hor, in the morning we kinda quarrel as u wanna me go home early at 630am. zzz. then i refused ni jiu ignore wo. T.T i owaz said dun wan go but in the end will still listen to u de mah.. so i left but u didnt said anything.. end up on bus msg u u got reply so better than nth hehehe as u asked me reach home le jiu msg u n got say muacks. =D then noon when u online i agree u u oso got ^^ reply. yea! improvement wor! happy like siao now keke...
| a simple me. 12:10 PM
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Monday, June 13, 2005
its reli so sad lor.. ytd is supposedly our one year anniversary de lor.. asked u if i can go n meet u, u replyed a "no" without even thinking. super sad lor. one year ago, when we first went stead u r so good to me. owaz acc me whenever i go n everyday after sch come meet me then send me to jj's hse or wad de. now??? big difference lor. u now acc me only once a week. not that i am complaining cuz to me, once a week is better than nth =D but still, a bit sad lor.. i oreadi reminded u but u treat it like nth.. frankly speaking, i oso dun feel we togetehr a year la. imagine lor, we break up how many times? in oct, dec, feb n apr. each time breaking up between 1-3weeks. these are the more major breakups. if u still recalled, there are times we break a few days then jiu patch then break again n so on. add up ar.. guess at most we together 8mths nia. haiz. y liek that.. my cousin went stead on 11jun 2004 til now never break up at all a year liao. so is yue n kok 16jun. not that i am comparing but its the fact. where is the old wei tat i love so much? reli miss u lots...
| a simple me. 9:34 AM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
dunno wad to say except i miss u lor.. wonder how are you now.. the last time i saw you, you are so the sick.. hope now you are fine.. last weekend wanna go find you de but you said you are very tired. is it an excuse from you again? no idea. i no longer knw wad is truth n wad isnt. when can we break free from this cycle? i hope so.. lets just hope you arent gonna give up just cuz you are in ITE le.. taking a step at a time now. =((
| a simple me. 3:01 PM
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Friday, June 03, 2005
wanted blog past few days but couldnt as my internet was down. anyway, haiz. its like, again we are going into a cycle i feel. just that this time is worse. meet a day after that straight avoid me liao. actually never blocked me in msn then u now suddenly blocked le. zzz. as if i did anything wrong again. haiz. dunno wad he thinking xia. went indonesia never tell me. asked him abt it he bo said thing. tell him come back le msg me oso never. disappointed lor.. dun understand why u like that lei.. this is NOT wad i wanted from this r/s. definitely not lor.. last time that chalet thing. u oso managed to put behind mah. juz avoid me a month nia then after that things back to normal til this year then the toot thing happen. since u can forget the chalet thing which wasnt my fault, i am sure u can forget this incident oso mah. why are u being so stubborn? or are u juz giving me excuses again? haiz. reli sad lor.. dunno wad to do la..
| a simple me. 10:06 AM
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