woww.. just a few days ago i was so sad n heartbroken. then sunday early morning dar dar msg me. once again he picked a quarrel with me in order for us to start msging each other. he said i looked happy without me thanks to frenzter. then he got jealous over the picture of ben n i. he thot i with else one and said he hated my attiutde. for the first time, i rebark him back that he himself oso got show me attitude and stuff like that. he just diam. then i told him not to carry on if he dun like me le and tell the truth. he reply me 4 simple words which i am so happy to hear; i still love u. heez. so we put behind everything n started anew. today is the first time we meet after 18days. things is on the rite track. n his mum saw me n treated me to lunch! haha.. oso gave me angbao though cny over liao. (^_^)
| a simple me. 6:12 PM
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
last nite i tio gastirc pain n vommited.. the pain was much worse than at xiao yan's house that day. i msg u.. yet u didnt reply my msg.. i thot u were slping so nvm.. was expecting a reply the next morning. the msg which never did came. do u think i'm lying to gain sympathy? does i look that type to u? i reli dunno wad to say... was i wrong to think u love me that much when apparnetly it seems like u didnt? go down funland everyday when i stopped going liao.. wads ds meaning? craps la. hurt me once n for all. tell me u dun love me liao can? stop leaving me hanging by the tiny string which is going to break soon. i'm tired man. tired to the point i feel like cutting myself again. dun let me do that.. or u'll regret 4 life i promsie!
| a simple me. 1:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
more than a week has passed.. am i wrong in thinking he loves me a lot? i reli have no idea.. on sat nite, his nick was "KNNCCB i'm going mad liao" while on sunday is "getting more n more stress". wanted so much to sms him but i didnt. end up i frenzter msg him told him i dun mean that sms; that if he wanna he can still sms me n told him not to be stress liao. that happened ytd. today his nick was juz his name nia. i checked his frenzter. he got log in n read that msg. dammit. he didnt even sms me lor. all along is it wishing thinking on my part i starting to wonder.. i reli reli miss him alot.. almost 2wks nv c him liao. 1wk since we broke up. heartache.. did i fall in love with the wrong guy once more? felt so foolish..
| a simple me. 12:58 AM
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
this few days been quite the.. i dunno. felt weird. like something is missing from my life. i lost him i know. felt so empty without him. i lost interest in everything around me. i no longer go funland or hands itch wanna play mj. i dun have a good appetite now. everyday i onli take 1 meal in sch. lost 2kg in just 5days. i dun believe it either but its true. lucky for me, i managed to find things to occupy myself during the day thus i did not break down in tears. have i gone too far by saying those hurtful words? for once, his msn nick remains same 4 straight 5days; "Single better or steads better?" seems like he realise his mistake.. shd i give him n stop making myself miserable? lets juz c how things go ba. *sigh*
| a simple me. 11:22 PM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
there wun be anymore xintat cuz we broke up. why? he juz say cuz he have no time for me. like that oso wanna break up. bo liao n childish rite? let him be them. break then break. no big deal. i told him straight that i dunno him said that i dun ever wanna hear frm him again. perhaps i will regret these words one day. but right now, i dun give a damn abt it cuz my heart is bleeding from the breakup. i hate chin wei tat for making me a fool. never will i trust him again. i'm out of this game forever.
| a simple me. 3:49 PM
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Monday, February 14, 2005
got stead equal to no stead... like i said, last few days he kinda disappear. then today oso lor. today i call him he never ans so i called his house. he got his mum to say that he's at toilet. he didnt call me back nor reply my msgs. ncie xia. last yr vdae i oso cried when with corliss. this year lei? with wei tat oso same thing. dunno y i so suay. super sad now. then corliss digged at me lor. said where got steads like u n wei tat de? super hurt and heartbroken now. who's to blame? who abandon me 1st? haiz. teardrops rolling down my cheek uncontrollably. i guess its the begin of another break up b/w me n wei tat. or perhaps it will be the last time i'm with him. dunno wad to do now.
| a simple me. 6:50 PM
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
just when i say he is good and pei me everyday he kinda go missing on me. ok la.. its not he gone missing. is he went bai niang the past 4 days. but still, he hardly reply my msgs so considered kns. tmr is vdae liao lor. n i got school. dunno he will come out meet me anot. wanted get him something 4 vdae de but he dun let me buy. oso dunno why. i think its cuz he knw i lose $$ in mahjong. oh well. i think my vdae prezzie frm him is mp3 player. dunno lei cuz he kinda said it out by accident. haha. reli hope tmr can see him n his msgs will come back arbo me will sian like hell. did i mention that he dun let me work? haha cuz he wanna me stay at home be housewife. shiok horz? *grins widely*
| a simple me. 7:31 PM
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
this few days laogong stick to me wor. no matter where we go, we also go in pairs de, though he hated heat, he still acc to n xiaoyan to chinatown wor. my shirt kinda drop then he alwaz covered up for me de. then he also never go home to days cuz he wanna acc me. see me lose $$ at mj he took over me. dai dee oso. in the end help me win quite a lot. then he got one day scold me in front of all my frenz twice. i cried and juz ignored him. when he come fidn me i also shown him attitude. surprisely he never juz walk away and juz held me tight and explain things to me. then he also never keep on acc ice liao. he also juz stay with me. ice wanna go home he acc me eat breakfast. he oso send me home despite feeling tired from not slping 2 days. so sweet! so in love with dar dar!
| a simple me. 7:42 PM
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
he come my sch fetch me and send me home on friday wor. so nice of him! then ytd he treat me to eat at kfc. he got say one thing i hear liao very happy. he say i his laopo so no nid work de. i shd stay at home be a good housewife. thoughtful horz? =D but he dun like me go fl cuz he dun wan me spend $$. then he knw i no $$ liao he give me $10. heez. oh ya, he maybe gg indonesia on cny. worried lei.. there tsunami... haiz.... then i 3 days no see him nor hear frm him i will go siao de lei... argh! miss him.....
| a simple me. 10:59 PM
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
yea!~ dar dar again somehow managed to get off. he wait til 16 feb then need to go back work. so he can pei me again. today he actually wanna come my hse de. then he reach my hse horz my dad came home. super lucky dad not in living room xia. so end up we downstairs talk. heez. very fun with him. he now reli treats me very good wor. then he got wear our ring oso lei. things between us finally go smoothly liao. hmm... vdae coming. dunno wad to buy him. i hint to him vdae coming liao he act blur. T.T nvm. he now rich liao so muz qiong him. hahaha. tmr he coming find me again. nice! cuz tmr he gonna pei me whole day wor. yipee! dun i soun liek a kid? Opx!
| a simple me. 11:34 PM
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
nth much going on la.. my dar dar busy working nowadays. chn new yr then he off. so now i'm home alone. =( worry abt him wheneve he works cuz scare ltr he hurt himself again. but he got say 4 me, he will be careful. heez. so sweet! got one time oso say no me pei him eat he dun want eat. hahaa. then when i dun msg him, he will auto msg me 1st de. so nice! ytd the bros go his hse, he oso tell me automatically. happy xia! me in his heart again wor! yea yea! miss him so much... hope can see him soon..
| a simple me. 11:41 AM
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