super duper mad & upset with dar dar now. ytd said that maybe today coming find me then in the end never. then he shdnt have tell me that make me happy mah. haiz. as if thats not enuff, he told me tmr he starting work again. meaning less time to acc me. logic has it tonight he shd pei me rite? guess wad? he going play mj with dunno who. dammit de. he never tell me somemore. is jj told me de. angry lor. damn fuck de lei. mad til i cant think straight liao. i called xiaoyan told her i wanna play mj. hopefully i will win $ then can my anger be appeased. haiz. i hate chin wei tat!~
| a simple me. 7:15 PM
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
dar dar pei me almost a whole day wor. frm last nite til today 1pm. heez. ytd i go funland cuz i wanna desposit money but i nv msg him. he msg me 1st! then he come out pei me eat dinner. treated me to dinner. then xiaoyan & co wanna play mj then he himself automatically pei me. so happy!~ but at mj we lose $$ lei. then i felt he more concerned w the game instead of me. suddenly he lean over n say the 3 words. then i couldnt stop smiling liao. haha. so long since he said them xia. me headache he oso very caring juz hug me. i cried he juz pulled me to him oso. i dun eat he feed me. i cold cold he hug me close. so in love with chin wei tat!~
| a simple me. 11:10 PM
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Monday, January 24, 2005
last nite til this morning i'm at dar's house. they play mj i pei him. he actually won $18 wor. he wanted give me $5 de but i never take cuz he got treat me to dinner n mj mah. then my dad's rm nv lock so he sae he coming find me aft sch. then at 3 i got a msg which he sae not coming le. i very sad lor. ask him y he no reply. then after that he sae c 1st then no reply liao so i go slp. abt 5pm rec'd a msg frm him ask me open door. heez.. so happy! we got do ard 3 times ba. then he got poke in2 the other hole. super pain... i cried.. then he wept my tears. =D we oso eat dinner together then go funland. so nice! whole day i with him wor! he oso treat me very gd. love is in the air!
| a simple me. 11:21 PM
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
my dear super the wad lei. he ar... ask ppl go his hse play mj no tell me. if not for dk i will not knw lor. zzz. then msg say him enjoying himself he still dare say haha. 1am go play billiard somemore. last time if his bros at his hse he would ask me along de lor but now nv. wonder y? haiz... y couldnt he be like dk alwaz pei me de? its so obvious he choose bros over me yet say i more impt. T.T the only time he pei me is when bros not ard lor. corliss will nv treat me de way de. Opx. fact mah. not i wanna compare. miss him a lot...
| a simple me. 2:26 PM
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Friday, January 21, 2005
i asked dar dar msg me when he wake up but he didnt so i called him instead. he only wakes up at 3+pm. pig xia. anyway then at nite when i going funland i msg him ask him got go anot he sae see 1st. in the end reach there i saw him. bian wo again. he pei me barely 10min today. i ate him in mj twice. after that i went sit next to him talk to him he wun ans me liao. zzz. he angry over mj or cuz i got zhirong's number? i also dunno. msg him oso wun reply. he juz went off with ice. haiz.. saw corliss today. he saw the WtRx card.. then go play billiard liao. twice we met each other's eye. isnt it all too late? heartache now...
| a simple me. 1:24 AM
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
surprised... corliss called me ds morning when i go sch.. its as if he wanna come find me... but i told him i go sch.. then hehung up.. then noon he msg me ask me sch til wad time... skip sch cuz he late liao or cuz he wanna see me? hmm reli no idea.. do it be he still misses me? but i wun betrayed my dar dar of cuz. thats my promise to myself. today dar dar got reply me when i told him i going home le wor. hehe. so happy! but horz mayb thur then can see him cuz he no go fl at nite.. n thur he go fl is cuz of ice.. zzz de. at least he will still meet me so nvm la. miss him lotz!
| a simple me. 4:17 PM
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Monday, January 17, 2005
went to funland with dar dar today. when i first saw him i dunno how to talk to him. cuz i feel so wrong after wad he said last nite... i feel i done so bad... look for zhirong when he not ard so i juz sat beside him nv talk. then he hug me 1st! hehe so i knw all is ok. we like normal again. he got touch me as usual la but its liek he oso got show me that he still like n love me a lot. he knws i hungry so he went buy food for me when i am playing mahjong. heez... so good of him! then i saw him wearing something on his neck. i kpo so take out n c wad it is. i was surprised when i take out. its OUR ring!!!!!! very happy seeing that.. then he oso got do a mj with our name again. hehe.. he gave me that card n confiscated my dreamer card. y ar... i oso dunno. besides treat me to dinner, he oso got pay for all the mj games i played wor. juz like last time! he oso got send me home. he fall sick.. wanted vomit all of a sudden. haiz. so worried abt him. so sad cant b by his side take care of him. but nvm! tmr i skipping morning lesson to go his hse pei him! hehex... hope he see me he will feel better...
| a simple me. 11:55 AM
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
i was chatting online with ppl n telling them abt how cwt treating me. was feeling very sad le when he suddenly msg me. its as if he knws i'm thinking abt him n wanting an ans frm him as he told me that the reason he not talking to me is cuz of zhirong. he not happy that i everyday pei him. then i sae that who ask him not to reply my msgs n alwaz pei bros. then he told me its cuz he wanna test me to c if i got do wrong. how he knew i alwaz did by being with zhirong. he sae i got zhirong dun nid him liao. haiz... he reli misunderstood me. i never did like zhirong at all. my heart onli got him n i told him that straight. i even soomba n i think he believe me cuz he sae oi sae those stuff. then he become concern ask me i how liao.. then oso call me pei me chat on phone until i slp. he keep talking abt sex. zzz i wonder if he's with me cuz he wan sex? but it seems like he still very concern abt me lei arbo y he will jealous rite? dunno la... things r ok for now. c tmr how ba.
| a simple me. 2:26 AM
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
haiz.. such a sad life for me. i beginning not to understand myself more n more each day. y am i letting u treat me ds way.y muz u treat me as if i'm invisble? u said i'm more important than ur frenz. yet y dun i feel it? first its ice. u everyday go out is cuz pei him. now that ice is gone. i was expecting u to be with me everyday yet where u gone? pei ur brothers everyday. one week.. how many days did u pei me? juz 1 day onli. bros? 5 days. wtf. i msg u u oso wun reply de. at fl u treated as if i'm invisible. do u knw how hurt i am? zhirong n kelvin is juz my frenz. yet i see them almost everyday. ppl almost mistake me for zhirong's stead somemore. everyone sae u n i not like steads. what u wan now? i knw i did wrong. i asked for a chance is cuz i wanna prove myself to u. but u r not lettin me do it. then whats the point of patching up? u seem so happy with ur bros. its as if u don't nid me. all i did is make u unhappy. then y r we carrying on? its reli no use de lor. give me ur final ans. i dun wanna cry anymore. i reli dun wan to...
| a simple me. 11:24 PM
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